I used to be a college student, now I'm just an ... adult? I'm 23. and I'm a little terrified of the future, but am learning to trust in what God is laying before me.
I'm a camp person, a food person, a kid person, a wannabe crafty person, an awkward person, and an introvert. I love warm blankets, windstorms, taking pictures, baking, tea, gingerbread lattes, violin, Settlers of Catan, being outside, a small number of TV shows that I have trouble keeping up with, and my loving friends. I think my little corner of the Pacific Northwest is the best place to live, I'm addicted to Pinterest, and spill things a lot.
*thoughts of sunshine --- because I like taking pictures of the sun. and because the sun is bright/happy/can be associated with optimism. which I like.
"1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.
2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.
3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.
4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.
5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.
6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.
7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.
8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.
9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.
10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.
11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.
12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.
14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.
15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.
16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you."
That time of year when the excruciating heat from the pits of hell are released and make people flock in hordes to their local public pool. Let me paint you the scene for summer time at the Y:
- crazy kids who don’t listen
- crazy kids to who run around on WET pavement…
reasons I’m glad to be at camp, and not spending all summer at the pool
if being large-chested is the supposed “ideal”
why is it so hard for me to find clothes that fit? Or at least, fit my upper torso but aren’t meant for someone who weighs 20 pounds more than me?
I didn’t ask for this life!!
(okay maybe I did when I was 12 and flat chested but I did not realize the consequences and I regret my wishes that I made in middle school because shopping is already hard enough since I’m 6 inches taller than the average girl)
You know that you’re only making like a dollar an hour, but haters gonna hate, you’ve got the best job in the world. People on the outside just don’t understand what it means to spend your summer in the camp wild.
When people talk to me while i’m lifeguarding
Gnnngh one day I am going to live in a fearfully pastel-y house.
living in a home like that would be simultaneously horrifying and amazing